Can you Beat Dyslexia…???

Hi to my regular readers (mum)

I write my blog mainly just to get my thoughts to paper because mostly my thoughts are like bubbles floating around within my head. Half the time they pop or almagumate with other bubbles before I have actualy worked out what they were.

 

I recently put up a post about beating dyslexia and I recived a reply that made me think. I have always felt that you cant beat dyslexia and that you have to work with it. But recently I had to do a lot of job related exams that were pritty hard and it massivly brought out the dyslexic traits that I have managed to rain in over the years.

 

It reminded me of the huge emotional wait that can be placed on someone causing a huge amount of preasure and stress because ultimatly in my case the exams will help me get on the path way to a better job, SO NO PREASURE AT ALL!!!!!

I hated dyslexia as a kid because it made me different from all the other kids. I had to wear eye patches, purple lence glasses, be put in special needs classes, placed in all the bottem classes even though pleading with teacher to be moved due to all the desruptive kids being at the bottem also.

 

I wanted to beat it then because I didn’t realy know what it was or why it is happerning to me.

 

Later in life I relised that you cant beat it and almost gave up because it always seemed to get one over on me so I just plodded along until I got to my GCSE’s which surprise surprise I did pants in! However I got it back in my head that I can beat this and I can break this mould so I pushed and pushed myself and not only did I pass my GCSE’s but went on to A levels and even got a degree in Business at university.

 

So strangly I have always been torn between this premis of beating dyslexia and working with it. Prior to my recent exams I was very much of the opinion that dyslexia has shaped who I am and that I like working with it to over come lifes chalenges.

But latley the emotional black thunder cloud has be cast again and it realy takes its tole.

 

I know deep down that I would not change being dyslexic and that adapting and working with it is the way forward but soetimes its hard. And even harder what you try to speak to people who don’t realy understand much about dyslexia.

 

Im not trying to say that saying beating dyslexia is right. I think when I use the term beating dyslexia I actualy mean phycologicly beating it and knowing that you can still achive what you want even with the shadow that always follows you (dyslexia).

I still struggle reading and recently I have forced myself to read more and now really seem to have the bug for it, to the point that its inspired me to write my own book. Its not role dar or jane austin but to me its a small goal I have set.

 

anyway I have rambled on way to much to I realy woud like to know what other people think about it and how they deal with dyslexia.

Mum thank you for reading 🙂 and if anyone else got this far then please contact me on twitter @sam the dyslexic.

 

Sam

Dyslexic Game Of Thrones!!

Is Dyslexia like an epasode of Game of Thones?

It defantly has the brutality that can be found in life, work, schools and collages. For most people it has a real sence of love and hate that can boil down into a really deep dark emotional place for some people. And most of all it has houses that have simular traits.

 

House of lanister reminds me of the house of Employer as they are all about power and wealth and have little regards for the soldiers, workers and other houses that put obsticals in there way.

 

House Stark is like House Dyslexic. Is fighting a stale mate war with its values, belives and problems against a bigger more non understanding House employer.

 

Maybe house Targaryan is the ever growing suport groups that defend the rights of House Dyslexic.

 

Ok I feel like im re writing this amazing box set and ruining it!! I just feel that sometimes being dyslexic is like being in a battle with so many difrent factors and people trying to cut you down or break you. Employers don’t really seem to understand the difficulties that being dyslexic can have. AND that sometimes it is only small changes that are needed to help that person get on. Its like the nights watch is protecting our barriers against all the negativity that is out there.

 

House dyslexia is a strong suportive community but outside that it can feel like you are banging you head against a wall. So what can be done….

 

In short – rise up and stand up and make it heard what you want to say. I have been having huge issues at my work because the employer does not provide relivent information on how it can help people with dyslexia. I have been banging on to them for years now saying that we need a website with more information.

Someone took my idea (management) and created a site that was not acsessable and block black and white text. Nice work coyboy!!!!! How about you jump off your high horse and think outside the box and ask the people that will use it (dyslexic staff) what they would like to see and how it should be presented.

 

I guess that is thinking! However one manager has picked this up and has been amazing. He has organised taking ownership of the internal site and is asking me to reasurch what officers and supervisors would want to see.

 

I moan a lot about employers espechaly mine but on this occasion he has been spot on and I think this will really help.

 

Oh on a seprate note I haave been speaking to some really coll people at NUword. They have created a cool site which has a chat forum that covers some real good dyslexic topics. I have writen a few posts in there and think it is a great way of shareing stories and experiences. Please check it out at www.nuword.org/join

 

It is free to sign up and really worth having a look.

 

Anyway I need to get back to my revsion as have a few marine exams on the go. FUN!!!!!!

 

Laters people sorry if I ruined Game of Thrones

 

Sam

@samthedyslexic

Anyone else hate this?!?!?!

Question 1

Which of the following is NOT the correct feeling you get when a negitive question appears in your exam?

  1. A negiitive question never affects me during the exam because I only notice when I failed my exams because I did not see the “NOT”.
  2. I saw the “NOT” but my brain is scared of it and takes the tactical desion to ignor it because if you cant see it it cant hurt you
  3. Put my hand up and ask if I can highlight the question so not to miss the “NOT” but get told you cant write on the exam paper!!!
  4. Or im a cool dude and no NOT is going to hold me back.

i. A and B

ii. B and DA,

iii. C and D

iv. Or you start cursing, rip up the paper, throw it at the teacher and start to cry!!!! (my option)

 

HAHA so you may have quessed Im not a fan of the negitive question which seems to be widley used in moden day exams. I recenly did an advanced version of highway code theory for work. Prior to this I downloaded the DSA official theory aplication for my iphone and smashed the revsion side getting well over 95% each time I did it.

On the day of the race, I was sitting there looking at the exam paper which almost every question was negitive, I thought you buggers are just trying to catch me out rather than actualy test me.

At first I thought it was a bit of a joke test and that the person in charge would spit his tea out laughing, pat me on the back and say “ we got you there lad!”

 

Nope this was the test, and the most anoying thing being the questions wernt actualy that hard but were worded in away that you had to question what they were actualy asking you.

 

Now am I just being silly or isnt it better that the student revises and the exam board test you on what you have learnt… Nope they like to go one step further and try to catch you out. WELL my message to the examiners is stop waisting your ink by chucking in NOT’s and exantending has to hasents and just do your job and actualy test peoples knoledge!!!!

 

Maybe im the only dyslexic that belives in this issue but I just don’t think its fair and ultomatly I don’t think its right.

 

Anyway on a happyer note I have stupidly signed up for a 50km run in september with my best mate. Im looking to run to promote dyslexia and rise a bit of cash which I would like to donate to a chairty / organisation that could use it to help someone who cant afford to have a dyslexia test who needs one. Will keep you all posted on that one.

 

Anyway only a quick blogg but pleae tweet me and let me know what you think!!!!!

 

Samthedyslexic

The Hidden Dyslexic in a Board Game!?!


Hi all, hope you had a great christmas and new year! Im sure a few of you are wondering what im meaning by the title of my blog regarding dyslexia and board games….??

Well randomly christmas is always a time for sitting down with the family and playing a good board game unless it is monopaly because that just rips familys apart!!! But this year we played a few and strangly they are a really good tool for showing traits of dyslexia.

Just after christmas we an open house with lots of friends and family and played abit of a rude card game. I wont mention the name as people may judje me, however in the game you have a the bagining part of a sentance put on the table. All the players have to use one of there seven cards to finish the sentence and the best ending wins.

I hate games like this because you have to read out loud. It simply just reminds me of the dark days of school in the English classroom where i would either read the same line twice or read the word wrong and say something rude or completely wrong!!!!

However I soon realised that i was not the only one who was having truble reading out loud. In fact a few of the group were having issues in not just reading but processing the information in which they needed to get out.

I think board games should have a sign on saying “warning you may be a dyslexic after you play this!”

I guess they test all the cognitive functions of the mind so it would draw out dyslexic tendencys. Sneakerly it made me feel ten times better because I wasnt the only one back in that english class that day!!

People who read this (hopefully other than my mum) may remember that I was writing a book. Its still geting there but blimey its hard work!!!! Im glad im doing this for fun and not on a deadline for a job!

Anyway on the subject of books I think people should check this person out. Beth Montgomery has writen a book about like at school with dyslexia. I havent read it yet but im looking forward to! check her out @BeesWhiskers

Anyway only a quick on as have more studying to do!!!!!!!!! I am now learning nortical navigation!! How lost am I going to get

 

Laters

 

Sam

@samthedyslexic

 

Getting Engaged Dyslexic style

 

Hey People, Sorry I havent blogged in a while, been so busy smashing up my house and trying to rebuld it, revising for an exam (hate exams!!), christmas and ended up getting engaged  so its been a busy few months.

I want to let you know how stressfull it is being dyslexic and trying to plan the perfect time / place to ask you girlfriend to marry you.

I thought it was just a case of getting down on one knee and putting a ring on her finger (left one aprently) and if she says yes all good and if she said no then that could be a huge misjugment and very embarising.

So it all started a few months before christmas when I realised that lauren (my girlfriend) was defantly a keeper. Well no actually I knew that a long time ago but I relised that I wanted to spend my life with her as we have so much fun and it feels so right.

 

So decided that the big question was defantly on the card. First thing that I thought I needed to sort was when to do it. This was are second christmas together to thought it would be a nice idea to do it around then.

Next location….. hmmm one of my friends did it  on the sofa at home whilst watching TV and another did it at the pub in Devon following his partner mentioning it. Now Lauren is laid back but Im not sure the sofa or the pub would cut the mustered on this one!

 

Lon story short I got it in my head that Ice skatting on Christmas eve in london would be a good idea at summerset house with the huge tree, lights and amazing setting. First problem – I CAN NOT SKATE!!!!!! I looked it up and aparently you can get huge plastic penguins to push to help you stand up.

Next problem – booking tickets and trying to get it off work. Very stressfull and to top it off the train drivers were all going on strike! I thought at this point that the plan was all over!!! So before even booking it off work and checking the strike days – I just booked it off!!

 

Luckerly The train drivers took note of my quick email to there unions saying “Dear sir, please don’t strike christmas day, I am planning on asking my girlfriend to marry me and if she says no and you cancil my train then I would have had a really bad day!!!”

 

So I booked every thing and got it off work. Next step the ring!!!! Where do you start. The most I know about rings are they are round. So many types!!!! And how much do you spend. The internet said three times your wages!!!!! Really???? I think google was having a lath so divided it by 2.

Luckerly a guy from work’s sister worked at a jury shop and she really helped. The only propble was ring size. HOW THE HELL DO YOU FIND THAT OUT. My friend gave me a ring sizer which I was going to try and do it in laurens sleep. I was all ready to do it but chickend out just before.

Luckerly Lauren had another family ring that she needed sizing so I went along and listended to the result. On going back to see the jury laady she said that if the ring was sized on the opersite finger to the ring finder it would be one size smaller if that was her dominant hand. I just agreed and went with that.

 

Anyway Im ramberling abit so straight to the day. D-DAY. Cought the train with no issues had a lovley day in the big smoke (london) and finaly got to the skate rink. WOW looked amazing, huge tree and sumerset house was lit up amazingly.

Go one the ice after putting my size 12 skates on and did a final check to see if the ring was still in my pocket. Ha that  would have been something I would of done, forget the ring!!! But no it was there so it was go go go.

At that point I just remembered I cant Skate!!!! And there was no penguine to help!!!! So I resorted to the ICE shuffel. Its that way when you move you feet about 10 cm a time so your feet are moving quickly back and fourth but your not actualy moving.

After three laps I thought , right now or never. I shuffeled over to one of the people in high viz who were picking people like me off from off the floor and said “I need your help Im going to ask my GF to marry me can you take photos” I told lauren that we were having a pic by the tree and turned to get the ring out. Could I get it out of my top pocket!!! No!! Finaly I pulled it out held it in my and and the genraly slipped and fell on my knee. Bloody hurt. How ever she came to help me up and I opened the box and asked her.

 

 

Litraly every one on the ice ring (200+) stopped and cheered!! One guy was going so fast that when he saw what was going on he crashed into someone that was clapping!!!

AND….. I got a yes!!!!

Probably the most stress ful thing I have ever done but one of the most rewarding and I am very lucky.

You maybe asking yor self, what does this have with dyslexia. Well it took a lot of my weaknesses to sort out ie Organisation, planning and confidence. All of which I was able to overcome to achive the end goal. To geve her an amazing evening and memory that we will never forget.

 

Anyway I have banged on enough and if you have got this far then I am impressed.

 

Happy new year all

 

Sam

Dis-Blog – the idea begins

Hi guys. I have had loads of stuff and coments on twitter which is amazing so thank you t those that follow!!! I have had an idea which I would like to see your opinion but I want to focus my blog on a wider variaty of disblitys and see if there are other people you there that have had issues like me with my over sized pair of purple glasses and being asked if I was drunk when online dating.

Its called Dis-Blog meaning disability blog. now that im writing it it seems quite obvious doesnt it. I dont think my common sense has kicked in tonight!!

 

I realy want to write bout other peoples issues that they have had with there disability so please please if there is any one with any kind of disability who wants to share there experiences the give me a shout on the twitter thing @samthedyslexic.

 

I think it will be something different and could be good. I don’t talk about my work much on here but blimmey have I got myself in some pickels over the years!!!! I wrote a document recently that said I was Pursuing a person for about ten minuets but I actuly wrote perusing a person for ten minuets. Spell check hates me!!! Im sure it just does it for a lath!

 

Anyway the goals are;

1)Write about the life of people suffering from disabilities

2)To see if they have any issues at work, school or university and if they can get a job?

3)To see how they coap

4)Highlight barriers created by sociaty

 

Short and sweet tonight but I would love to hear from you so please give me a shout!! Oh and if you have any ideas on how to get it going then again I am rubish at computer stuff and woud aprishate any ideas.

 

Sam the dyslexic

Beyond Limitations – Chapter one – My Dyslexic Book

img_1430

Chapter 1 – spit, crown joules and detention

Another cold wet day waiting under a disused shop’s porch, cherishing the moment of peace before the inevitable hell that was to come down the hill. John wasn’t the only one taking a second to embrace what time he had left before it arrived. Every school day John and his friend Jack waited at the bus stop at the bottom of the hill in Sandgate. And every time it was the same routine; meet jack, wait for the school bus and then endure the twenty minuet journey to school without drawing any attention to yourself.  The joys of being one of the last stops on the bus meant that the old double decker bus which was painted with pictures of Disney land on the side would be almost full and seats would be mostly taken. Whatever this bus was it certainly was not Disney land! Each day it would be a challenge to find a seat that kept you out of the way so to blend in with the mob that was the school bus.

sandgate-bus-stop

John blinked and came back from his recollection of the day before where someone had set fire to one of the seats causing a lad called billy to get burnt on his leg. I don’t think billy will be on the bus today john thought. But who will be the next victim and can it get worse than burning. John felt sorry for Jack as he suffers from torrets syndrome which automatically made him a target on the bus. Some day they will laugh at him when a swear word comes unwillingly through his mouth and other times it would make him a target for being spat at and food thrown at him. Luckily for him the mob never discriminated making anyone a target. Sounds terrible I know but it shared the load meaning if you got it one day fingers crossed the focus would have changed the next. John realised that he had not been the target this week and by the law of averages it was his turn.

school-bus

John looked at his watch… 08:18. Two minuets remained and both John and jack took a last few breaths. John could tell that jack’s anxiety was increasing as his ticks began to shown. Please please let there be a free double seat we both thought! This was rare and the norm was to pick the best of what seats were left. Sometimes the bully’s purposely left a seat free next to them and the other seats which were free were next to the people no one wanted to sit next too. John didn’t mind siting next to those people as he didn’t care if people were popular or not. 08:20 on the dot, It appeared from around the corner from up the hill. Once you saw it you had about 30 seconds until it arrived at the bus stop. The squeaking breaks screamed just before it stopped and the air breaks let off a loud release simular to the relise john gave before the doors opened. The crazy thing is that not only do you have to endure this journey but you have to pay for the privilege also.

Jack reluctantly got on the bus first trying to hold his ticks back which must have felt like a shaken bottle of coke ready to explode. He paid his £2.50 and moved down the isle of the crowded bus. John Piper took a step up on to the bus and was meet with a sharp glare. Oh no its him john thought. There was about five different drivers but one had taken unbridge to john for no particular reason.  John held his money out but the unnamed driver just stared at him in silence. This meant the bus was being delayed and then everyone on the first floor started to look down the bus to see what was going on. John started to go red as he knew that people were now looking at him and seeing what his happening. The driver then looked and saw that everyone was now looking, turned back to john and the smirked. He took the money and handed over the little printed square ticket which acted as the return. 

eveil-bus-driver

John turned and started to walk down the isle. Everyone was looking and snigering at him. John saw jack who seemed to have lost his ticks as the heat now seemed to be on john and not him. He offered a smile in the hope to offer some support without actually having to get involved. John looked around a saw there were no seats on the lower deck. He slowly took the spiral stair case to the second floor. This was mixed with the older years of the school. Again they all starred and started to snigger. One double seat remained. John was cautious as this never happens. He was one of the last stops which meant there was only ever single seats next to people that were already sat down at best. John walked with caution towards the seat which everyone seemed to be looking at. In a desperate attempt to detract attention he took a quick glance and sat down the side nearest the window. As soon as he put bum to seat laughing started. John went red, he didn’t want to move to see what had happened, he just froze and could not move. Marc who was another shy lad turned and whispered “they greeneyed on your seat”. John slightly lifted himself of his seat and sure enough a green guey  mess was stuck to his trousers!! Nice thought John.

The bus eventually the bus arrived at Brockhill Park Secondary Lower school. A burst of air signaled the release of the double doors at the front of the bus. John waited until the rush had gone and every one had left. He was still looking down at seat and the green stain both on it and his trousers. When he looked up he saw a tall figuar which was hiden by the glare of the morning sun. As the tall, wide dark figuar moved forward it soon became clear that it was the driver. “look what you have done to my bus you little shit!!”, “You school kids are all the bloody same! Dirty, enconsiderate, thick waisters!.

“but I havent done anything” john said.

“Yes you have you burnt my chair, you spit on my seats, you call me fat, well I have had it up to here with you little pricks!.

seatfire

The driver then grabbed John by his coat and pulled him off his seat. His grip pinched johns skin underneath which sent a sharp pain through his body. His teeth were clenched and his face as red as blood. The heat that was radiating of the driver was emence. The driver was a large fat man, he had large square framed glasses with dark pinprick eyes. He had a real sense of eveilness about him which was reflected in his anger towards john. The driver squezed harder and drew his other hand back clenching a fist. John took a deep breath, plucked some courage and kicked out as hard as he could whilst having his eyes closed. He used all his force and lashed out. His foot with his doctor martin look alikes frusted up into the drivers groin.

Bulls eye – straight in the nackers john thought. The driver went down like a sack of patatos enabliling john to make a run for it. He flew down the stairs and towards the bus door whilst looking behind him. John then came to an abrupt stop after runing into someone standing buy the bus door. A tall, slim straight man with sort hair and small eyes looked at John. “Mr Black sir, I was just…” John struggled to get his words out and started to stutter. Behind he could hear the bus driver rushing to the bus door. He also stopped sharply on seeing Mr Black.

“is there a problem here?” said Mr Black.

The bus driver paused and considered his next move.

“no” he said, “there is no problem here” in a revengful tone.

John knew that this was not the end of this and as he walked off with Mr Black he could see the bus driver staring at him in his proifral vision.

After getting through the school gates, Mr Black said to john “is there anything I need to know about that?”.

John paused and thought “yes sir the bus driver grabbed me and I kicked him in the crown jouls!!!!, He would really belive that!!!”

“No sir, nothing to tell”

Mr Black staired at John with his pin prick eyes and and rubbed his chin for a second. He then turned and said “life will test you john and its how you deal with the moment that will shape the future” John shiverd and ran off to his form room for morning registration which he was already late for.

John walked into 7SG and saw everyone stairing at him as he came through the door.

class-room

“And where have you been a sharp loud voice rang out”

“sorry miss” john said in a quiert voice trying not to draw to much attention to himself. John went to sit down and as he walked passed Miss Gibson, he heard here shout “john!” what is that sticky stuff on your trousers!!!”

“erm eerm” John had nothing.

“go clean yourself up”

As john walked out of the class he heard a loud spate of laughter explode in the class room.

John sighed and said “bloody briliant!”.

“I heard that john” Miss Gibson Shouted. “I will see you at lunch for detention”

“oh bolex” john said under his breath.

“forget that john we will call it after school detention!” she shouted.

The class were loving this. Was like pouring petrol onto the fire.

John ran off before his mouth would get him in more trubble.

 

John Cleaned himself up in the toilets, wipeing the green gunk off his trousers.

“I hate them all” he wispered under his breath. “why is it always me”. John who was standing in trap 2 turned and sat down on the toilet lid and staired at the door. A poster was there of a tall ship set in a picturesque tropical sourounding. Before john attempted to read what was on the poster a loud crash came from the boys toilet door slamming.

John froze and tried to listen to see who it was. The toilet block was massive with over 10 cubical or traps as the kids called them.

“JOHN!!!” a voice shouted out ringing through the block.

“I know your in here!!!”

hiding-in-toilet

John instantly knew this was the voice of Dean Daily, the schools full time bully, whose girlfriend may of taken a shine to john. “I think she just thinks I am a little special, but she is really nice to me and dam!! She is hot”.

Jade wilson was the most beautifull girl in the year. She had long chocolate brown hair, deep brown eyes, lightly tanned skin and spoke like an angle. The first time john had meet her was when he was walking from the upper school to the lower school which was a three hundred meter walk when he was pushed by one of the bigger boys off the single narrow path onto the huge open field that separated the schools and fell straight into a thick puddle of soupy muddy water. Jade rushed over and helped him up onto his feet whilst the rest of the school just laughed. She smiled and walked on leaving john standing there cold, wet, embarrassed but ultimately in love!! Whilst standing there watching her walk off with her friends who were gigerling, John was mesmerised watching her pritty much with his toung stuck out, then a huge thrust launched into his side and before he knew it he was back in the puddle! John later saw jade but due to his trousers being so wet and muddy he had to wear a pair of white tight small PE shorts, shoes and a shirt and tie on top! Sometimes it felt like the teachers were bullies too john thought. She smiled and said “looking good john” in a cheeky but non patronising way and touched him on his arm as she walked off. This is where dean had seen John and chased him around the corridors for hitting on his girlfriend. “how he thinks I could hit on his girlfriend dressed how I was” john thought.

wet-muddy

“Well looks like he’s caught up with me now” John thought.

“I’m going to find you and I’m going to flush your fat head down the toilet and use you as a bog brush!” Dean shouted as he checked and slammed each toilet door individually.

Four traps remained, three traps, TWO TRAPPS, ONE TRAP!!!!!! And then John heared a shout; “DEAN! – Mr LING is coming”. He was the head teacher. John could hear quick footsteps back to the main door and a voice saying “your time will come john, your time will come!”

A chilling silence turned the toilet block into an icy arena of thought in which john could only see bad things happening to him.

DICK! A shout came and smashed the icy atmoutear that surrounded him. BUGGER, DICK, KNOB!! A louder shout this time. John stood on the toilet seat, looked over into the next toilet cubical and saw Jack sitting there with a nervous smile on his face. “Alright John” said jack, “that was a close one wasn’t it”. John sat back down on the seat and looked at the poster of the boat.

“I need to get away” john said.

“Me too” said Jack.

John jumped back up on to the seat and looked over to where jack was. Only this time jack was now in full flow urination!

“What” jack said “I couldn’t go before in case Dean put my head down the loo”

“It’s about time we stood up to these people jack. Gather everyone together and we will sort this out once and for good.

 

3.15 the blast of three loud pips sounded the end of the school day. The last lesion of the day was religious education with Miss Gibson in Johns form room. No sooner than when the pips had finished the screech of chairs moving and books being thrown into bags dominated the room. It was like someone had shouted BOMB!!! Really loud and everyone was rushing for the door.

John stood up and started to pack his bags. “And where do you think you are going?”. John looked up and saw miss Gibson standing over him. Johns head feel onto his bag which was laying on the desk in front of him.

detention

“I WILL NOT BE LATE FOR RAGISTRATION, I WILL NOT SWARE IN CLASS AND I WILL RESPECT MY TEACHER IN RAISTRATION”

“I WILL NOT BE LATE FOR RAGISTRATION, I WILL NOT SWARE IN CLASS AND I WILL RESPECT MY TEACHER IN RAISTRATION”

“I WILL NOT BE LATE FOR RAGISTRATION, I WILL NOT SWARE IN CLASS AND I WILL RESPECT MY TEACHER IN RAISTRATION”

150 lines later john dropped the pen, sighed and said “excuse me miss, I’m all done”. Miss Gibson took one glance at the paper and said “is registration not ragistration, do it again!”

4.10 John wrote the last word of the last line down on the paper. “I don’t want to see you here again John PIPER” Miss gibson said in a loud voice.

John stood up, clicked his over worked hand and left the class room.

It was a long walk back to Sandgate via the beach. John didn’t mind as he loved the beach and the sea! He eventually got home and found that his mum was out. John got changed and wrote a quick note saying he would be back at 8pm.

img_0512

John walked up the long hill to military park where he had planned to meet his friends. On arrival he meet up with jack, Marc Albury, Craig hothman and blind Dave Denman. Dave wasn’t fully blind but he was born with only limited sight in one eye. For someone that couldn’t see very well he had a very good perspective of life and he loved the ladies!!!! He was a small lad but quite athletic looking. Marc was smaller and ware glasses. Craig was the same build as John, more stocky although craig was a bit taller.

John and marc were the dyslexic arm of the group, Craig was the OCD part and blind Dave was the brains of the bunch. “guys we are here today to come up with a plan of attack on how to deal with Dean” John Said.

“lets just kill him” Said marc. “yeah that sounds good” said Craig “but we need to kill him in a way that no one knows he’s dead and that we did it!!” “yeah” said marc.

“what an amazing plan, no one would ever know hes gone” john said in a sarcastic tone that took the grins off marc and Craig’s face.

An argument erupted about what they were going to do when Dave shouted “suspended”. The others stopped their petty arguments and listened. “we need to get Dean suspended, but in a way that he doesn’t know who set him up!”. “Marc where is that pen and paper you brought?”.

Marc passed the scrap bit of paper and the half chewed pen to Blind Dave.

“now boys this is what we are going to do……”.

plot

I think your Dyslexic but its guna cost ya to find out!!

Apolligies for the slang but I thought I would make this blog abit gangster!! Iv got abit of a bee in my bonnet at the moment because I don’t understand why someone who might be dyslexic has to pay around £500 for the privlege to find out. That’s crazy right..? That’s kind of like me saying “I think you need your apendix out but its going to cost you to find out!” Because if you don’t sort that problem then its going to cause you massive issues when it explodes inside you. This is the same in the dyslexia scenario because if a person doesn’t pay the money and they are dyslexic then the issues will come to a head just like the apendix.

So I have done the test twice, once at university and once at work. So the university one I had to pay for so that I could get extra time in exams and allowences made for spelling and gramma. But that privledge cost me £500. Is that fair that some one in full time education has to pay for the right to say that they have a disability?

I don’t think you need to be an expert to identifie if people have strong traits of dyslexia so why is it that you have to pay for this but if I was getting assessed for other disabilities I would not have to pay.

Luckery in my job my employer will pay for peope to do a full dyslexia test if they shown medium or high signs of dyslexia on an online screening test called DORE. But how may organisations are out there that don’t offer such opertunities. Staff and employees that are doing jobs that could be made easyer for them if they had the test and reasonable ajustments made.

 

I feel it is about time that we should not disadvantage people because of cost. If it is clear that a person has dyslexic traits and atributes then why on earth are we charging them to get the help they need.

 

I think its about time that the government stepped up to the mark and set up scheems to put the owness on employers and them to help cover the cost. It should not be down to the individual to try and fund this by them self’s.

 

If your reading this and you think that you may be dyslexic then surely it is your right to find out. But im 100% sure that if you have to pay £500 to find out then the likelyhood is that you wont pay that and just try to soldier on regardless of the issues you encounter every day.

 

I coud rant all day on this but have to shoot off too work but please please let me know what you think on my twitter as its good to know im not the only one thinking this @samthedyslexic

 

Anyway short but sweet

 

Sam

Chapter 1 of my dyslexic book

Hi guys,
Just got back from holiday so thought I would chuck a blog out there. So last week was the first real abroad holiday with the girlfriend so wanted to impress. We went camping in lake Garda, Italy which is stunning. No, I wasn’t being a cheap skate going camping, it was what she wanted to do and the fact that it saved about £700 on accommodation was just a bonus 😉
Our campsite was right on the lake under a mountain of the Alps. Right on the waters edge was a paragliding runway. We decided that we were going to have ago and take the jump! Its just under 2km high up the mountain and you are strapped to a qualified pilot. What could go wrong? So were took the cabble car from malcesine to the top of mounte baldo which is bloody high!!!

 

You then get to the top and hear to the lake side edge of the mountain and gear up. Lauren went first and basicly you have to run down this slope and sit when they say. She got off and had a perfect take off. I was so focused on just staying alive I wasn’t realy taking in all the information the pilot was saying. All I heard was “run sam, run sam!!” so I ran. Apparently (acording to the go pro footage which comes with the jump) he said when I say sit down then sit down but not yet. So what did I do… that’s right, I sat down straight away!!!! All I heard was NOOOOOOO not yet!!. The only way I can describe it was like when you go to the beach, pick a flat stone and scim in along the water surface, well this is what happened to me. My bum bounced a few times, the pilot was panicking pulling every control of the craft as possible and suddenly my bum must of given a good bounce off the floor and we took off!!

I will post the go pro vidio at some point, its funny! I wanted to say sorry im dyslexic but thought maybe this is just a stupid sam moment rather than dyslexia!

So after we landed we went back to the camp site where our camping neighbours who were a nice German couple said they saw us land. There English was limited but good but at that stage where they look for reassurance that they are saying the right words. He ended up talking about the parachute and wanted to know what the word was to put air into it. I just came out with deflate! And then thought that’s not right. The German guy was like “ oh thank you your teaching me and making my english better!!” I was like oh no iv given him the wrong word!! But didn’t have the hart to say I had got it wrong, opps!! However I did upset him on our last day. When we were packing up we had one of those long clicker lighter things which we could not take back. So I went over with Lauren and said that we could not take this back and did they want it? For some strange reason because I thought there english was slightly limmited I said to him “this is for making fire!!!!”. His face dropped and said in a sarcastic tone “oh really, wow we are so primitive, I did not know that!!”. I could not believe I had actually said that!!!

Anyway I have completed the first chapter of my book. If anyone gets a chance can they please have a look and see what you think. I have never written a long story and to help I based it on my old school but with different characters than people I actually went to school with. Well some of the charicters are simular but it was just to give me a template. Any way see what you think and feed back is needed.

Cheers

Sam

Beyond limitations draft

Chapter 1 – spit, crown joules and detention
Another cold wet day waiting under a disused shop’s porch, cherishing the moment of peace before the inevitable hell that was to come down the hill. John wasn’t the only one taking a second to embrace what time he had left before it arrived. Every school day John and his friend Jack waited at the bus stop at the bottom of the hill in Sandgate. And every time it was the same routine; meet jack, wait for the school bus and then endure the twenty minuet journey to school without drawing any attention to yourself. The joys of being one of the last stops on the bus meant that the old double decker bus which was painted with pictures of Disney land on the side would be almost full and seats would be mostly taken. Whatever this bus was it certainly was not Disney land! Each day it would be a challenge to find a seat that kept you out of the way so to blend in with the mob that was the school bus.
John blinked and came back from his recollection of the day before where someone had set fire to one of the seats causing a lad called billy to get burnt on his leg. I don’t think billy will be on the bus today john thought. But who will be the next victim and can it get worse than burning. John felt sorry for Jack as he suffers from torrets syndrome which automatically made him a target on the bus. Some day they will laugh at him when a swear word comes unwillingly through his mouth and other times it would make him a target for being spat at and food thrown at him.

Luckily for him the mob never discriminated making anyone a target. Sounds terrible I know but it shared the load meaning if you got it one day fingers crossed the focus would have changed the next. John realised that he had not been the target this week and by the law of averages it was his turn.
John looked at his watch… 08:19. Two minuets remained and both John and jack took a last few breaths. John could tell that jack’s anxiety was increasing as his ticks began to shown. Please please let there be a free double seat we both thought! This was rare and the norm was to pick the best of what seats were left.

Sometimes the bully’s purposely left a seat free next to them and the other seats which were free were next to the people no one wanted to sit next too. John didn’t mind siting next to those people as he didn’t care if people were popular or not. 08:20 on the dot, It appeared from around the corner from up the hill. Once you saw it you had about 30 seconds until it arrived at the bus stop.

The squeaking breaks screamed just before it stopped and the air breaks let off a loud release simular to the relise I gave before the doors opened. The crazy thing is that not only do you have to endure this journey but you have to pay for the privilege also.
Jack reluctantly got on the bus first trying to hold his ticks back which must have felt like a shaken bottle of coke ready to explode. He paid his £2.50 and moved down the isle of the crowded bus. John Piper took a step up on to the bus and was meet with a sharp glare.

Oh no its him john thought. There was about five different drivers but one had taken unbridge to john for no particular reason. John held his money out but the unnamed driver just stared at him in silence. This meant the bus was being delayed and then everyone on the first floor started to look down the bus to see what was going on. John started to go red as he knew that people were now looking at him and seeing what his happening.

The driver then looked and saw that everyone was now looking, turned back to john and the smirked. He took the money and handed over the little printed square ticket which acted as the return. John turned and started to walk down the isle. Everyone was looking and snigering at him. John saw jack who seemed to have lost his ticks as the heat now seemed to be on john and not him. He offered a smile in the hope to offer some support without actually having to get involved.

John looked around a saw there were no seats on the lower deck. He slowly took the spiral stair case to the second floor. This was mixed with the older years of the school. Again they all starred and started to snigger. One double seat remained. John was cautious as this never happens. He was one of the last stops which meant there was only ever single seats next to people that were already sat down at best. John walked with caution towards the seat which everyone seemed to be looking at.

In a desperate attempt to detract attention he took a quick glance and sat down the side nearest the window. As soon as he put bum to seat laughing started. John went red, he didn’t want to move to see what had happened, he just froze and could not move. Marc who was another shy lad turned and whispered “they greeneyed on your seat”. John slightly lifted himself of his seat and sure enough a green guey mess was stuck to his trousers!! Nice thought John.
The bus eventually the bus arrived at Brockhill Park Secondary Lower school. A burst of air signaled the release of the double doors at the front of the bus. John waited until the rush had gone and every one had left. He was still looking down at seat and the green stain both on it and his trousers. When he looked up he saw a tall figuar which was hiden by the glare of the morning sun. As the tall, wide dark figuar moved forward it soon became clear that it was the driver. “look what you have done to my bus you little shit!!”, “You school kids are all the bloody same! Dirty, enconsiderate, thick waisters!.
“but I havent done anything” john said.
“Yes you have you burnt my chair, you spit on my seats, you call me fat, well I have had it up to here with you little pricks!.
The driver then grabbed John by his coat and pulled him off his seat. His grip pinched johns skin underneath which sent a sharp pain through his body. His teeth were clenched and his face as red as blood. The heat that was radiating of the driver was emence. The driver was a large fat man, he had large square framed glasses with dark pinprick eyes. He had a real sense of eveilness about him which was reflected in his anger towards john. The driver squezed harder and drew his other hand back clenching a fist.

John took a deep breath, plucked some courage and kicked out as hard as he could whilst having his eyes closed. He used all his force and lashed out. His foot with his doctor martin look alikes frusted up into the drivers groin.
Bulls eye – straight in the nackers john thought. The driver went down like a sack of patatos enabliling john to make a run for it. He flew down the stairs and towards the bus door whilst looking behind him. John then came to an abrupt stop after runing into someone standing buy the bus door. A tall, slim straight man with sort hair and small eyes looked at John. “Mr Black sir, I was just…” John struggled to get his words out and started to stutter. Behind he could hear the bus driver rushing to the bus door. He also stopped sharply on seeing Mr Black.
“is there a problem here?” said Mr Black.
The bus driver paused and considered his next move.
“no” he said, “there is no problem here” in a revengful tone.
John knew that this was not the end of this and as he walked off with Mr Black he could see the bus driver staring at him in his proifral vision.
After getting through the school gates, Mr Black said to john “is there anything I need to know about that?”.
John paused and thought “yes sir the bus driver grabbed me and I kicked him in the crown jouls!!!!, He would really belive that!!!”
“No sir, nothing to tell”
Mr Black staired at John with his pin prick eyes and and rubbed his chin for a second. He then turned and said “life will test you john and its how you deal with the moment that will shape the future” John shiverd and ran off to his form room for morning registration which he was already late for.
John walked into 7SG and saw everyone stairing at him as he came through the door.
“And where have you been a sharp loud voice rang out”
“sorry miss” john said in a quiert voice trying not to draw to much attention to himself. John went to sit down and as he walked passed Miss Gibson, he heard here shout “john!” what is that sticky stuff on your trousers!!!”
“erm eerm” John had nothing.
“go clean yourself up”
As john walked out of the class he heard a loud spate of laughter explode in the class room.
John sighed and said “bloody briliant!”.
“I heard that john” Miss Gibson Shouted. “I will see you at lunch for detention”
“oh bolex” john said under his breath.
“forget that john we will call it after school detention!” she shouted.
The class were loving this. Was like pouring petrol onto the fire.
John ran off befor his mouth would get him in more trubble.

Dyslexia – We just said that Sam!!!!!!!!

Haha as the title suggests I seem to have an issue with memory and processing information. It is always getting me in trubble because my brain seems to select information it wants to hear in a conversation and then completely disregard other parts with out me even knowing. When I was younger I always used to ask questions or bring up a converation that had just been talked about a second ago.
I only really noticed this when I was 15 and joined a local Rowing club where I meet my best friend Craig and most of my friend group. They ended up nicknaming me “built”. As in thinks as fast as a built!! the sarcastic gits!! And then it stuck for over 15 years!!

When it comes to my work and the roles I have to partisipate in briefings with a number of difrent people. I often sit there really intrested and trying to take in all the information. I feel that I have understood all of it and then feel that I have a good question to ask which I do, and then everyone turns to me and say “were you not even listling!!!” Then I am thinking “yeah” I was and how did I miss that part. So now at the end I never want to ask questions just incase it has already been mentioned. However the other day I did this and someone elce asked a question that I was thinking and it had not already been mentioned!!!!
How am I going to get around this one. Obvously progresion at work is all about bettering your self. But this memory thing seems to be a real issue although does make me giggle because I just don’t understand why it happens!!!

So as per my last blog, I really want to start writing my own book. Its actually quite hard in the sence of where to start. My idea is based on a young lad growing up in school suffering with dyslexia who experiences some real lows but realises that dyslexia can also give you some good highs! We shall see how it goes. Any book writes out there that can offer any advice I would be very greatfull.

Anyway just a quick one today

All best

Sam the Dyslexic